Here it goes
Soundbite: Worst Day (feat. Izza Kizza) (Calvin Harris)
So here it is. I should’ve known to expect it, then maybe the impact wouldn’t have been so great. But no, I shoved it to the corner of my brain and so … here it is - my first horrible day in Melbourne.
It’s not as though the entire day was shit. It started off pretty all right, went for lunch at MacDonalds with Arthur, played a little bit of Guitar Hero … etc. It was from the Metric gig onwards that shot my day right into the pits of Hell. Fucking Australian kids don’t know how to hold their liquor so I pretty much ended up yelling at 8968298927 annoying assholes and am 95% sure that I’d punched some drunk fucker very hard in the head. Walked out of the gig halfway through because it just became completely unbearable. I was so pissed off that I was actually shaking at one point, and was quite close to tears of rage and violence for a part of the evening.
It definitely picked up at night when everybody came over, so I am infinitely grateful for the close friends whom I’ve made here. But god, I can’t seem to shake this sudden depression off. It’s like all the quick flashes of emptiness and loneliness that I’d gotten when I first came here are now flooding my brain, and I’m barely able to deal with it.
How can a person be so happy yet completely overwhelmed with sadness and aggression at the same time? -_- It’s got nothing to do with my birthday, I can’t be fucked about that. It’s just … I don’t actually know what this whole thing is about. All I can say is that I haven’t felt so goddamn fucky in a long time.
Also, I’m never celebrating birthdays again. It’s just stupid. :/
